Beautiful passions, fears, truths, admissions, plights, concerns, and overall thoughts and conversations about life, wellness, health and the maze of being human between Sivan Bokra and Ryan Keating:
I guess that’s what the playa does out there. Makes us gravitate towards putting ourselves in positions for what we want
I don’t want things to come my way when it’s not from a healthy place. Taking care of yourself and thinking about your life and situation allows one to come from a place of want vs a place of need.
The ability to feel my heart expand and then contract, followed directly by the fear that it will never expand again. Oh to be human is such a tender experience! I chose, and I continue to choose, consciously, purposefully, and on purpose to remain open. To remain fully alive and present in every moment, expanded or contracted, and feel the multi layered expression of how this existence affects me, and mine upon it. My wish is that every expansion and contraction of my being be greater and push my parameters always and ever onward, and please, with grace!
My nervousness about life has totally turned into wonder and acceptance of power and calm and admiration and feeling fortunate to be experiencing everything and knowing it’ll lead to growth. That expansion is such a heart opening experience.
Wow is when it just happens synergistically. I have moments of fear and nervousness about jumping into things but I keep breathing and it continues to be validated by unrestrained and open communication with myself, others, and the environment. Coming from this place, I’ll continue to let it be what it be.
Fear and nervousness can help remind us that we are in fact still alive. There comes a point where you walk towards it and meet the energy head on that you’re feeling. Falling on the side of looking stupid rather than saving face is where true growth actually festers.
Welcome to the new portal where you actually get to try out and experience some of the most intimate things about how you’ve always felt or wanted to feel. It’s like a beautiful piece of fruit becoming ripe. You’ll get ample opportunities to eat them but all of us will always need to invest in making sure we just don’t get lost on eating the fruit but rather on laying the seeds and maintaining the garden that gave us that final product. Naive and idealistic fruit also can often taste the best.
I feel like you have to plan as much as you can and then roll with the punches as everything falls apart
At burning man, if you don’t plan a little bit then you’re gonna lose your shit out there and have to cater to your spontaneous needs. A little planning goes a long way for just about complete freedom and making sure your spontaneity leads to what you want vs what you need.
The only way you know how to cope is through trauma, so you are constantly creating or seeking out trauma in order to feel functional, even priding yourself on how cool you are under pressure and how efficient you are when you are stressed to the max. I have spent a good part of my life trying to undo that pattern! Revving your engines as hard as they can go just to feel normal!
It’s nice to push but always pushing has a lot of depletion involved and definitely caters to an addiction mindset and really makes the highs and the pushing mentality harder and harder to achieve. The downs and chill times and quiet times do give rise to realistic and sustainable highs. It usually isn’t a recipe for success to always be in one mindset or mode. Getting burned out is NOT fun and kills a part of you that is hard to bring back.
Fanaticism of any kind is unhealthy so definitely staying in one state is unhealthy especially when it’s a high-stress high taxing states. I find myself yelling back and forth and trying to learn the balance and sometimes there are phases of my life where I have that more under control for lack of a better word and sometimes I’m a little bit more sporadic and I guess unhealthy is the word that comes to mind that’s what it feels like to me. It is up and down but constantly upward so it’s good
Validating our authentic beings. A connection based on that with yourself, others, your environment is unstoppable and very rare. You really don’t see it that much. It’s all in the attempt in regards to this. Expectations and attachments and outcomes aside. If u attempt such genuine and authentic shit it will lead u to being better and freaking powerful. The power won’t come easy, though, but definitely does ebb and flow towards an upward direction if you’re actually authentically pursuing it.
If you are not honest with the universe, how can you expect the universe to respond to you with honesty, and to your authentic self? If I am not being me I will attract people who like something that is other than me, and the more authentically I can be me, the more I will attract people to me that actually like me. That is actually taking some time to settle into my being that people will actually like me for being me. I continue to breath into it and take on my insecurities and vulnerabilities.
Falling on the side of not being afraid of looking stupid in the attempt rather than being afraid of looking stupid and not doing things is powerful. I try to land on the weird and stupid side and make myself open to critique and improvement. People admire that and u only look stupid for a second and then that quickly turns to growth and leadership qualities and an awesome sense of vulnerable power. Admiration quickly follows as people look up to those who can do this. Everyone wants this. We are all human and deal with many of the same things.
Vulnerable power!!! So beautiful. Stay in your power place. What you seek is seeking you. Don’t threaten me with a good god damn life! I have always liked the saying, don’t threaten a prostitute with a dick…haha!
I often feel I am holding parts of myself back so that others are comfortable or I’m not and then I’m isolated. Many wars have been waged for people to accept the way I am and I demanded this acceptance. Funny cause what used to be total resistance has turned into most looking up to me. Having a social support group came natural from this as well but definitely led to me being more empowered in my approach.
Vulnerable power is true power and expansion…Okay vulnerability to the wind!