We want to relate to the world. We want to complete tasks. We want to set goals. We want to make a difference. We want to be noticed, and perhaps then, our egos get in the way. We want recognition and validation for whatever we are doing. It’s all very tricky for what motivates us in our lives. Nothing is right or wrong but, rather, just the way that we are and acceptance and awareness seems vital.
Everything is the NOW. The present is so important. We get so stuck in our heads about past and present. Push for doing most in the present NO MATTER what it is. In time, plans will be crafted out based on the present. It is more important to just do things (stupid Nike and how right they are) that are founded in a positive feeling that brings about some sense of meaning and purpose. Little attention is to be paid to how good we are or whatever judgments we have about the action. The feeling is the most important thing. Get to know that feeling and how we can take it on and create authentic trajectory in our life that isn’t as confined by most other goal oriented, societal norm thinking. A special essence comes from this. A special meaning. A special control in the maze of no control.
Often, I’ve gotten stuck in the past. I didn’t do certain things, or thought that such and such was useless to take on because I wasn’t good at them or intimidated by how long it would have taken to see the fruits of my labors blossom. But what happens when you achieve those fruits? They become relative just like everything else and somehow a journey has ended. Growth happens less in a way. Somehow, perhaps not as exciting anymore. You eat the fruit. You eat a second fruit. Then the mind wanders to that original journey again. We forget the journey of growth to a fruit. We forget what goes into continual re-birth. There is no end result, except if the end is somehow seen as a constant cycle.
Somehow the fruits need to just be whatever we do in the present. In the book Aleph by Paulo Coelho a wonderful analogy is brought up referring to the Chinese Bambu plant. How it takes five years for roots to even set. What kinds of things in our lives do we have no idea about but then one day something magical appears and we’re like, oh yeah, that’s what all of that was about? What kinds of roots to you want to be proud of five years from now?
Relationship are mazes in our lives. The outcome of dis-attachment is key. Life is, well, just life. It doesn’t have to mean anything. When we attach meaning to it, perhaps that’s where the most trouble comes from. This can be the best and worst mentality to prescribe to. Nothing matters so why do anything, or, nothing matters so why not try and do everything? Most of what we envision and strive for does NOT pan out how we think and outcome somehow needs to be more related to an in-the-present feeling of what you need to be doing and feeling fulfilled by. Being in love, in divine unison with others, is out of this world wonderful when it aligns with another but then it gets obvious when it doesn’t align and you are just trying to hold onto something that no longer is there. How much of our lives is spent holding onto mirages? How much of our life is spent being in such depleted states? Not that certain love connections can’t return but that it has to be allowed to fruit in its own direction again, maybe to come out in a grand, organic love intersection again, as it did before. In reality, though, it won’t really happen how you want or envision and such unions are rare and that’s ok. Having an idea and expectation of that outcome will make it happen less it seems anyway.
It is vital to hold a still cup in your life, that you really try to be in the most wonderful, self-love relationship with yourself as that will be what makes you the most expansive in relation to others. It will allow for loving, authentic grand unisons. Loves from others will come and go and blast out in all directions from friend, lover, enemy, acquaintance, whatever else. What really goes into creating love and meaning with connection? Love in life will never just be love because you want it to be. It will be more of what you want it to be when you allow yourself and others to flourish with no outcome. How do you naturally align? Honesty and self-truth are good things to rely on.
How many lives will you have to live before you start allowing? Your past life and lives have led to this and your future life and lives will be made better by this. You are living on the vertical and seeing how your horizontal moments led to your vertical ones. You are more conscious about it all now. Keep having self-acceptance about who you are and what you were and what you will become. In this way, the present is but just a moment. A powerful, never ending moment but a moment nonetheless. A moment that can lead to others but a moment that doesn’t have to be defined by others.
How do we increase our skills for WITNESSING our lives. It is very powerful for me to think that I am just watching myself at moments. It makes it funny. It makes me take more interest in my life. Weird how if I was watching my life I would be entertained and want to tune in more in general. Maybe this is a product of the millennial video game generation. Our lives are somehow more interesting if we were “playing” them in a game or on a screen! Only with the presence of absolutely no screens and connection does the feeling return of being content with being the one playing out their “life game” on the screen. Hmm, how did this happen?