1/19…Learning and Brain Resistance.  How to Find Peace in the Mind for Concentration and Learning.  Repetitious Muscle Memory Learning with Ukulele VS Faith Based, Soul Learning and Personality Transition with Spanish Acquisition.

—-To really absorb learning, one has to dive into their soul and have awareness for how they actually are. How do they respond when their brain resists so vehemently?  What situations, people, environments deplete them and what do they need to do to be in better states of health to absorb that which makes them expand and grow?

One has to learn how to learn learning in order to really be able to learn efficiently and expansively and not have it be overall depleting or resentment building.  Those feelings will always creep up on you and win, and crush everything you’re doing.

At the end of a few weeks, with 15-30 minutes of this brain, muscle memory practice a day, you know how to play a song.  As you play the song in full it is extraordinarily fun and rewarding.  Soon you can’t remember how it was that you didn’t know it.  Slowly, gratitude for having learned can diminish, as now you know, so what’s the difference in the here and now?  It’s a part of you and you move on.  The difficult process starts all over again and you sort of hate it and love it. It’s always been funny to me how much the brain RESISTS to learn.  It is really this strange combination of a stubborn child throwing a tantrum simply because they have to do something, and an overprotective parent who would rather their child lead a boring and unstimulating life because safety is priority number one.  Your brain resists at every second, screaming at you, “You’re doing something wrong! This is not how we learned!”  To bypass such situations with the brain, one just commits to the process.  The process of what one wanted before they started to learn something new and the screaming occurred.  Repetition is the most important thing as this is the only defense against the overbearing, unlearning mind.  Even if it’s only 5 to 10 minutes a day.  The repetition is you communicating with your brain that this is the new ‘right’ and a retraining of the muscle is in order.  The brain and mind does not control you and it’s important to not let it do so or else you will be stuck in perpetual loop cycles of acting the same in every way in your life forever…


8/18…..Sitting with Dense Negativity

—–The stimulation of intensely feeling something makes me feel like I exist.  Somewhere along the way, a darkness crept into this stimulation pursuit. I often can attach myself to negativity because in it I see the potential for the most growth, for the most stimulation to occur.  The cliché is more pain equals more gain, or even “Jesus died for your sins.”

I grasp for the ultimate growth but the pure negativity exposure at times has conditioned me more. The pattern continues until depletion and exhaustion sets in.  Habits and addictions are hard to break, and I’ve felt out of control with this loop pattern of thought.  It has reached breaking points, where I felt my mental state cracking and I’ve noticed trauma response setting in at times or even a natural incentive build for not wanting to experience life anymore.  If I had a pressure valve it would almost be to a state of blowing up the pressure cooker.  I don’t want to end up always constantly chasing stimulation.  I don’t want something like achievement of the ultimate good, or boredom to be the cause of me reaching for the negative.  There is only a certain amount of pressure that is healthy to be exposed to.

The rabbit energy in me is afraid of missing out!  And it treats me likes shit and in no way that I would ever dare of treating others.


1/16…Stress and Body, Lecture 1

—-The solution to avoiding chronic stress is not exactly in the homeostasis of balancing out one part of the body but in the allostasis response of balancing out the whole body. If you get stressed like a normal mammal, you better be capable of turning on your stress response to deal with it. If you get stressed like a psycho-socially, sophisticated, human being, you are constantly going to be paying the price of dealing with chronic stress being activated. It is as human as cooked food.